Doodle done with paper on my iPad XD Haouuuu this is the picture I was trying to send you OTL

I feel as if I’m living a dream rather than actual life and I feel so lucky to have them. No matter how many times they deny it, I’ll still be there to tell them that they are beautiful in ways more than one because they are just so special to me.

<3 I saw these on the way back from my walk… I thought of you ♥

Sing a lovely love song in front of me, please
One that will never change, any day
Until my heart stops, until this time ends
My lovely person, hold me forever
♥
You always tell me about your love for me
With serious words I’ll pretend to be strong, and, well, clarify
The philosophy that’s marked me
With a deep breath, you whispered
A multi-coloured love message
Don’t worry, I believe your words
♥
Sing a lovely love song in front of me, please
One that will never change, any day
Until my heart stops, until this time ends
My lovely person, hold me forever
♥
Don’t force yourself to make that strange poker face
Your innocent face is fine
What matters to meIs that you don’t let go of my hand
In my heart, my love for you is building up
Don’t worryI trust everything about you
♥
A love song, over and over, in that voice of yours that I love
Give me that melody in front of me, forever
I want you to always be there when I turn around
My lovely person, stay by my side forever
♥
Don’t stop that love song,
sing that eternal melody, please
In front of me, forever
Until my heart stops, until this time ends
Take in my feelings, full of love
♥
Sing a lovely love song in front of me, please
One that will never change, any day
Until my heart stops, until this time ends
My lovely person, hold me forever

angelkitty11:

chazzi just told me i’m not normal

CHAZZI told me that

alas, it must be true! D;

But darling you aren’t normal!!! You’re not from this world!~ <3  You’re just so very special! <3

angelkitty11:

ok, guys, this is just an opinion ^w^ i am not trying to shove it down anyone’s throat or force anyone to believe it. i also admit that it’s based more on what i want to believe than fact. i ask that you not be offended or upset. if you want to throw in your own two cents, go ahead~! :3 just pretty please let’s not have an argument or be upset or anything ^^; because i love everyone and i don’t like hurt feelings :<

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D’awww!!! I don’t blame you for feeling like that!  I have to admit that when I watched the first ep, I was like blown away by his new calm persona, I was okay with it for like two eps, then something started tearing a hole in me.  I spent the entire Season 4 arguing with myself like a mad person.  One moment I’m like “OMG!!!!” but then the next moment I went “Don’t be so sadddd! *SOBBU*”   Especially when you find you he’s lost his love for duelling I basically went “NUUUUU!”  It was really weird not seeing him go “THIS IS EXCITING!”  when he’s in a pickle.  Dear god, there were times where I was blown away by his change and other times, it was heartbreaking.

I only disliked Yubel for maybe the earlier eps, but God then again at the same time while watching GX I was having my heart broken by someone, so I kinda did understand her heartbreak OTL.  I was actually surprised that although he had fused with her, you don’t even see her much! o_o”  That’s just so weird… Although those eyes on Judai constantly made me die and gasp for air or fan myself XD  I have a weird thing for heterochromia.  

I have to say I haven’t been into Judai as long as you have been into him, but god… that boy drives me crazy.  Obviously I say I’m married to Haou coz I like being Royal OTL. XD And coz like a person with a stoic personality fascinates me as a hyperactive one.  I know that’s why I can really love Judai as a whole person.  When you look at all his different sides he is just so beautiful.  Sometimes it makes me want to cry, when people draw genderbent pics of him I wail in despair “HE’S PRETTIER THAN ME!”   I love how it wasn’t until maybe half way through Season 4 I realised that I had something for him, but I didn’t feel right because he was just so un-him… It made me kinda sit there and stare at him sadly.  I remember complaining to my sister, I’m still complaining now once in a while.  I go “I bet, if you pushed Ni Juu over, he would just fall over, then get up and just stand there again.”  In a way I find it cute, another way it bugs me ;A;

Season 4 is like a real test for me.   It really is.  Every time I watch it I fangirl at my screen but at the same time I look at him going.  ”But that’s not really how you smile!  That smile of yours is fake!  Fakeee!” and then I go into a depressed mode too.  What I hated the most was when his friends couldn’t understand why Judai has kept off of them.  I wanted to give all of them a good slap across the face.  Jesus!  They kinda died cursing his name, oh yeah he was going to think that they were okay with him again.  He was simply trying to protect them, the others don’t know the responsibility one needs to take up when you kill someone.  I can understand fully how Judai felt so responsible for everyone’s death.  I have to admit I had a dislike for Yugi before, when I watched GX it GREW.  XD  The only thing I really thank him for is making Judai finally regain that love he had for duelling before. I think I recently told you about the joy in my heart when I watched BBT!!!! It was so beautiful to see Judai back to his happy go lucky personality, to the thing I truly love!  I was worried that he would be sad during his travels!  It’s so cool to see him free running at the start getting away from Paradox!  I was like *A* “HE’S SO COOL!  HE’S SO AMAZING!!!” the movie left me in a very good mood for a long time, that’s why when people say it’s crap I frown at them.  I deadpanned a friend when she was like “I like the Pharaoh.” XD

I don’t think you could ever say you loved someone unless you loved EVERYTHING of them. XDD  I think you’re on the right track!  XD Coz’ when I was crushing heavily on Malik Ishtar I used to have a problem with his Yami.  But Dear lord with Judai.  I love EVERYTHING of him, his laziness, his carefree attitude, his cluelessness when it came to things outside duelling.  Like when he asked “What’s a fiance?”  When my cousin called him “Kinda stupid” I like pulled an angry staring face at him.  XD  Then went.  ”He’s not stupid! ASDFGH!  He’s just cute!” It doesn’t make sense, but then again when did I make sense lol!  

I err recently exploded at some people in a rp group for saying they hated him, what I didn’t understand was why I was added there!  I flinch EVERY TIME someone goes “Yugi won that duel.”  I get angry and throw a hissy fit and start a long rant.  God, people just gah!  I don’t understand how people work in the western world at times T_T coz it seems that Japanese people adore him… the amount of fanart up there… I think prefer a guy that’s clueless and is only into what he does best, not a guy who chases skirts all the time.  I mean yeah that naughty factor in them sparks something in me, but GOD!  I  remember when I first started liking Judai I was in the borderline of him and Malik.  I used to go “I would date Malik but never take him home.”  ”Judai?  I would take him home to see my parents and I wouldn’t hesitate marrying him.”  Just coz he’s so beautiful that way.  He is a beautiful person.  I really hope NO ONE EVER replaces him.  You probably remember how utterly dirty and shameful I felt when I was lying to people about how I’ve changed my love for Judai for Johan as an april fools day joke!  Dear God I felt DIRTY.  Even after my shower I felt dirty!  I felt so horrible when I said “I reckon I should divorce Haou-sama” to people to push it.  I was depressed that day so badly, coz no one went “LIES!”  my MUM still thought I liked Johan yesterday, thank god my sister was there to explain it to her or I would have just died.

Honestly, I WISH I discovered Judai earlier.  Now he’s everything to me, I flinch when people call him by his dub name or when they don’t recognise “Gatcha!  Tanoshii dyueru dattaze!” At expo last year I did that to some Judai cosplayers… THEY BLANKED ME.  It broke my heart!  So I refused to hang out with those XD  I eventually met like one that recognised it and I was rejoicing!  He’s an awesome guy XD.  It was so weird coz at the time I was suffering from a broken heart from another guy and my friend said to me “You can have him, because he’s a Judai cosplayer.” then i went “But I can’t! Because he isn’t Judai! *SOBBU*”  Judai is something that I treasure so much.  Because not only has he brought me awesome friends.  *pokes you and Jen* But he’s improved my drawing by a lot.  That guy is a poser… XD OTL well I can basically put him into any situation, he’s so fricking well rounded that it’s amazing.  This January when I was making my comic, my lecturer basically said “You’ve improved a lot since last year.” and he’s this guy who is kinda hard to please and FFFF He is rather good looking.  My brain dies when I see him, last year I couldn’t look at him properly lol.  But this year… the attraction WENT.  It was odd.  I don’t even look at guys anymore.  I blow off guys because of Judai XD…

Nuuuu now I’m worried about butchering his personality when I RP him!!! ;A; *SOBBU*  I explode when people make Judai OOC unless told at first, but like I want to pick up tables and throw them at them!  My god, the worst I have to admit was when I read a fanfic where they made Haou-sama cry!  Every inch of me died!  It’s not a secret I like am totally in love with Haou.  FFFFFFFFF  I kinda do find it funny when they make him kinda flirty, I wish he was a little bit that way at times, but it would destroy his personality x3 He’s charming the way he is <3  I guess I can’t read spiritshipping anymore because of that… sometimes some people just write Judai so bad I just want to strangle them.  And partly because I don’t want to look at Johan for a while… 

I reckon… I could kill someone for the sake of Judai and Haou… mostly Haou coz Judai would never do it.  When people are nasty about Judai I want to go hug him so badly.  I want to hit them so much!  I literally do feel sad when Judai feels sad!  I don’t think my love for him is healthy or sane!  FFFFFFF people know they’ve opened pandora’s box when they talk about him!  I never shut up about him!  It’s gotten so bad I kinda err… stand there randomly in the middle of the day going “Judai… ;^;”  it depresses me that I could NEVER find someone I liked in real life because i would only like them because A) they act like Judai B) Look like Judai in cosplay C) Are like Haou and D) Refer to B).  

I don’t think you’re insane, but then again XD… I love him as much as you do, but really I admire you coz you’ve loved him longer!  I… I’ve only loved him for 8 months… *SOBBU* After when I realised I loved him I was like “WHERE WAS I ALL THESE YEARS?!” 

So there you have it XD Offend Judai, you offend me.  I will dislike you and lose respect for you… XD *hugs and high fives you* Rapid Judai fangirls FTW! XD

Thanks SO MUCH for posting this up!  I really needed someone to write this!!! ;w; I’m so glad that you feel how I feel!!! I thought I was the only one or something or that I’m going mental!